POEMS
"I remain human... for the most part."
- Camille (League of Legends)
I have realized I write alot about my feelings in my notes app on my telephone. Find these little expressive writings that explore my mind here.
Slight content warning; mental illness, abuse, trauma, etc.
ROOTS
by Elisus Swans
wrap me in the leaves
cover me in the moss
take me to the trees
so im no longer lost
FADING
by Elisus Swans
these blurry skeletons stand scattered
images swirling with uncertainty
these memories arent for me now;
these memories are for you
SPRING WISHES
by Elisus Swans
walk in the rain
feel the drops drum upon your skull
for life is not permanent
like the clouds,
a company,
the creases in your clothes.
always step forward
feel the bright beam upon your eyelids
for a future is not gauranteed
like the flowers,
a fire,
the folds on your forehead.
ATACAMA
by Elisus Swans
take me to Atacama,
let the sun strip me bare.
my flesh melting away,
let the sand stare.
stood in desolation,
muscles propping up clothing.
there's a desert within,
every grain self loathing.
i remember the trees.
was i the axe?
was i the suffocating blaze?
my bones are turning to ash.
PRAYING TO TREES
by Elisus Swans
human existence is too complicated
for a shattered soul like me.
praying to trees, scraping at dirt,
a sinuous reality.
disconnected and cut off
from the Mother that be.
i seek return to the mud and Earth.
i dig so long, lost and so empty.
is there something to gain
now that i am lost?
the trees keep on falling
how much more will this cost?
FLOATING OBJECTS
by Elisus Swans
we're all floating objects at sea,
rippling against each other in the water.
OUROBOROS
by Elisus Swans
ouroboros.
the slow slither,
a forever cycle of suffering.
we're all caught exhausted within those jaws.
when will the mother snuff us out before we completely consume
ourselves.
SINUOUS REALITY
by Elisus Swans
we sink or swim.
forever thrashing in water.
with the suffering dragging us under,
why did we swallow a sinuous reality?
TAKE A SLICE
by Elisus Swans
take a slice of my soul.
i'll deal with the emptiness,
the rage that will wrap and writhe within its place.
i'll deal with the suffering,
the seek for sleep for something that screams within my wide waters.
i'll deal with the darkness,
the disrepair and decay that grasps me in the gloom and shakes me by the shoulders.
i'll deal,
i'll deal.
take a slice of my soul
and satiate yourself.
i'll deal,
i'll deal.
FEEL
by Elisus Swans
do you feel it?
scratching away at your surface,
scurrying beneath your eyelids,
screaming silent at the back of your brain,
suffocating inbetween neglected body and soul.
do you feel it?
the sound of dull tapping on the glass of the goldfish tank,
the slow twist to contort and constrict your spine,
the sorrow gripping into your skin;
pulling leaving receded gums,
the sinking of self as you submerge never to grow again.
do you feel it?